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  1. Sarah Sarah says:

    The thing about memoirs is that the author is the hero and the story is how they remember it Though names have been changed I have little doubt that I too graduated in Mercury's class of 1999 Mercury from the eyes of one of its most introverted is bound to be different from one of its stars I applaud Amy Jo for having her book published I remember her stating her future goals aloud in one of our classes stating that one day she wanted to write human interest stories I like most everyone else from Mercury was in the background of this story We did not take piano We went to the Catholic Methodist or even the other Presbyterian church We weren't leads We could never dream to be and most of us would become okay with that I saw myself playing Centerfold on the clarinet with the pep band during basketball halftimes I heard my clarinet solos in Guys and Dolls while being hidden down with the pit band I was on that band bus I twirled a baton in the tunnel on the football field as the homecoming court walked past I sat in class and listened to her obsess over her transcript I laughed aloud at that part of the story Somehow a transcript that was scotch taped together and then photocopied got me into a good college in BaltiAs for the piano teacher incident I took my lessons from my aunt I remember hearing a little about it on the playground A girl wouldn't tell me aloud what happened because it bothered her too much to think about I did not know the man but felt safer because he had been fired and would never be my sixth grade teacherThe thing that bothers me about this story is her escape and how other reviewers praise her for it It makes it sound as if the town was not worthy of her or had wronged her deeply I wish she had not felt that she had to live up to the expectation of Mercury really those were probably only the expectations she had placed on herself anyway She is one of many who has left Even how she left does not set her apart Amy complains of the poor college counseling received by those who wanted to go farther than Slippery Rock; I do not argue this point I find myself wondering why we who left and are now successful rarely come back to try to help the next generation not only to expand their boundaries but also and importantly to be happy and succeed


  2. Calvin Calvin says:

    Well that was a couple hours of my life I'm never going to get back Why didn't an editor tell her um Amy when you pass the 50th time telling people how different mercury is or described the 10th day like no ever well that isnt a good thingWhat's annoying is the concept of the book is solid even original but so badly written


  3. Patty Patty says:

    Once again thank you to Edelweiss for allowing me to read this e book I may not have found it and that would have been a loss I am grateful for all the times that publishers are willing to share their books with librarians and readers on sites like this oneI turned sixty this year In the last few years I have noticed that many of the protagonists of the books I read are younger than I am That has been true for decades but it seems evident lately Probably because there are so many authors who are younger than I am I am getting oldMemoirs are one of the types of books for which it seems especially true About half of the memoirs I have read this year were written by people younger than me As a young reader I don’t think I would have expected to learn anything from writers who were my age So wrong so untrue but that is what I rememberI am not knocking the writers All of those books have taught me something shown me worlds that I would never experience for myself I am grateful for their writings Like the other authors I am indebted to Burns She tells a tale that does not show her or her community in the best light I can't imagine being willing to revisit any trauma from my adolescence Burns has remarkable insight into herself and the girls who had to deal with abuse from a trusted adult She is willing to think about both her faults as well as others I read this book hoping with every page that life would work out for Burns It appears that it has She has published this book and written other things that have been published I hope that her willingness to share her story will help othersI recommend this book to all readers of memoirs – you will be glad you met Amy Jo Burns


  4. Michelle Arredondo Michelle Arredondo says:

    First off want to give a big thanks to the goodreads powers that be for my win of Cinderland A Memoir After going through many other reviews on this book I was eagerly anticipating getting my hands on my very own copyThis is a memoirso we are getting the life of a child in a small town Actually we are getting the life of a child in the failed industrial small town of Mercury Pennsylvania in the 90's that is rocked and mauled by a perverse and personal experience I can tell you right from the start I was intriguedit grippedit pulled me in and I wanted to learn about the events that unfolded on a innocent 10 year old girl and her fellow playmates in such a small community There is no beating around the bushwe don't get pages upon pages of backdrop until we get to the root of the matteroh no Amy Jo Burns takes us right there right from the beginning And from that beginning I am bombarded with uestionswhy did she call herself a liar so often??why did she blame herself so much for what she did not do??why did she and several other girls just like her decide to take a mutual unspoken oath to never admit to the crimes that occurred on them by a loving Pillar of the community and Piano teacher Mr Lotte especially when one such friend did have the audacity to do so?? She gets right to the pointshe gets right to her rawest of feelingsand with that uestions are answered as we go alongthings make sense She puts small town life into a perspective that I could understand that I felt myself drawn into and falling in love with even as I sit in my home in a big city From the way people raised their children the activities they engaged in to keep with traditions and sanity the gossip that spreads like wildfire Friday night sports crazes and how uickly people can turn away from the bitter raw truth shunning those that live by that truth We feel for the girl that struggles with keeping her secretand we understand why it is so important for her to do so if she is to ever escape the town she came from Through her childhood struggles with always trying to please others and striving to be at the top of everythingcomparing herself with best friends wanting to be wanted by a boy only to lose that boy because of her guarded inhibitionsnever telling than she needs tobeing ashamed and embarrassed by a town and all it embodies through it all she realizes that the town and all those people in her life have shaped who she is and even through escape she could never truly abandon where she came from yet she can't remain in it I was drawn in by one such uotethe intestinal fortitude it took to create those thoughts out of her experience I knew there would never be another place as lovely as this one bleeding as this one as fucking evanescent The word fuck was created for a town like this because it was beautiful and horrid and small and suffocating and contained everything precious to me When Trent Reznor had created Closer I believed he could have been imagining a night just like this one when he had lived here That's what it was to live in this town It meant leaving this place because it was sick and I didn't know how to save it Amy Jo Burns is a master at being able to describe things so well so appealingly and so to the point I am still in awe that she can get that much story in 205 pagesWith this being her first book I am most certain that it only gets better from here and I look forward to reading many books by such a talented author in the future I recommend this book to anyone that doesn't have time to sit and delve into a 700pages complicated read but still get all the substance and depth as a great one I recommend this book to anyone that has dealt with their own childhood battles as a victim of a sex crime as I am one myself It didn't take me into a dark placeit actually helped me to understand my own uestions to my own actions following my event and to the actions of others around me and strangely enough there was comfort in that I recommend this book because it is a great and beautiful book and deserves it's place among other great well known memoirs


  5. Liralen Liralen says:

    Boys will be boys Burns says of Mercury's attitude and girls will betrouble or untrustworthy or teases In any case girls get the shorter end of the stick And when the piano teacher was accused of assaulting students it was in many ways the girls who came forward who were put on trialI volunteer at a rape crisis centre and so much of what Burns discusses aligns with the things we talk about Lotte the piano teacher isolating grooming his students Trauma not being easily classified based on how 'serious' a crime is to the court Much of the community refusing to believe that it's true in a 'not in our backyard' kind of mentality; they don't want to admit that sexual assault can happen anywhere can happen hereBurns talks a lot about the silence that seems to grip the town; her parents don't address the accusations; indeed they aren't the ones to pull Burns from her piano lessons instead Lotte drops her and some other students Children are scolded for showing an interest in the case Those who did speak up are pressured to shut up Are uestioned Meanwhile much of the community rallies around LotteBurns uses first person plural 'we' when talking about those girls who kept their silence but who the rest of 'we' is is never clear There's still a great deal of silence in this book Whether Burns ever told her family about the secrets she was keeping we don't know; if as I think is the case her sister also took piano lessons there's no acknowledgement of what that might or might not meanThe book's description says of the girls who kept silent they were smarter But within the book that's not the message Burns sends She may have found relief in her silence initially as the town took its support in the wrong direction As the book goes on though she's weighed down by that silence evaluating her actions to make sure she stays on the right side of public opinion to make sure she doesn't break the mold until she can do so permanently There's a tremendous sense of her holding her cards close as close as possible not just through the actions she describes but also in writing the bookThis doesn't have a lot to do with the above but it says to me a lot about the environment Burns grew up in so I'll end with itMy first spar for supremacy occurred during Vacation Bible School in a neighboring town when I was only eight years old The theme that year revolved around friendship and at the end of the week a 'best friend' was selected from every class by vote The unintended lesson Friendship was not laying down your life for someone else Friendship was sizing up your competitionOur class of girls was small no than five and three of the students abstained from voting'This is stupid' a girl named Mary said 'Why can't we all be best friends?'That left two votes in play Carly's and mine We each wrote a name folded our papers and handed them to our teacher We watched as she opened them She smiled as she shook her head 'So sweet' she whispered to the other teacher 'Carly and Amy chose each other'I realized then that naiveté had the power to claim women as well as girls The teacher thought we'd voted for each other but we hadn't We'd each chosen ourselves 153 I received a free copy of this book via a Goodreads giveaway


  6. Morris Morris says:

    It is difficult to write a review of a memoir due in part to it being someone's life story that was partially laid out for them by circumstances of birth as well as the fact that the author is an inherently flawed narrator by only having their own thoughts to base it upon In fiction even if written in first person at least the author has an idea of what is going on in the other characters Cinderland A Memoir is particularly difficult due to the subject of molestation Anyone being able to write about it deserves credit for that aloneThat all being said this review took me days to finish and I finally decided to review as I would any other story fictional or not It is based upon a complimentary copy provided through the Goodreads First Reads program in exchange for an honest reviewThe positive of Cinderland is that it does an excellent job of exploring the feelings that stay with abuse victims throughout their lives It takes an emotional and developmental toll It was also extremely honest in terms of the guilt the author felt over not having spoken out about the abuse she suffered leaving the fallout to the other girls who did speak out As uncomfortable as it is to read I feel that it's very important to expose the way people blame victims even if it is unintentionalUnfortunately the author comes across as someone who feels like those around her are beneath her in some way especially those who have no goals to get out of the town While she admits to loving to the town it is implied that those who are content there have no ambition and are trapped It is as though she never begins to think that they may love living there and want that life In keeping with this trend while she writes that the need for the spotlight was to hide what she was truly feeling it is very obvious she was smart and popular That is not a bad thing but again there was a feeling of dismissal of those who were content to be in the background of thingsIn spite of this the positives would have led me to give Cinderland four stars That is until the part that dealt with Aaron For someone who meant so much to her his deepest scars were revealed with very little empathy and absolutely no follow up I could understand if it was a protection of privacy but if that was the case his secrets should have been left out entirely The broken hearted boy who was obviously being taken advantage in a relationship by someone in a position of power physically abused and had stood by her throughout her life with not much acknowledgement until the end of high school was in my opinion the most sympathetic character in the book As it was written he was used by and disposable to the author Of all people she should have understood his hurt but all that was written was what he did for her Unlike what the author wrote leaving a town does not mean having to make a clean break from those you loveI am not afraid to admit that I searched the thank you notes hoping that Aaron would have been mentioned He helped her through but apparently did not even warrant that The disregard for those around her are what makes me absolutely not recommend this book It reads like a self congratulatory slap on the back and is uite frankly grating


  7. Karen Karen says:

    In many ways Amy Jo Burns' Cinderland is a typical coming of age memoir that takes place in a small town in the Pennsylvanian Rust Belt Readers will witness the young narrator journeying through her teenage years with descriptions of summer community pool excursions high school musicals and plays friendships that form and also dissolve and the heartache of that first love Yet unlike the traditional coming of age memoir which is usually told through a linear storyline that follows the transistion of a child or young teenager to the adult world and features a defining moment that changes everything about the main character Burns' work introduces this defining moment at the start of her book Thus she weaves the conseuences of her actions through her teenage years as she grapples with what happens to those who tell the truth and what happens to those who don'tThe year that Amy Jo Burns turns ten she finds herself in a scandal that has shaken the tiny town of Mercury Pennsylvania located halfway between Pittsburgh and Erie Howard Lotte the town's highly respected piano teacher has been accused of sexually assaulting several of his female students Out of Lotte's many students who were uestioned seven came forward to tell the truth while others lied Burns was one of the students who lied Those who told the truth were ostracized by the town; those who lied were safe from the repercussions Or were they? Burns' memoir traces this incident through her teenage years exploring the role of women in the rural Rust Belt as well as perhaps America in general Silence is supposed to be golden But in many ways these young women got lost in the silence As Burns explains We are the girls who lied about Mr Lotte when others told the truth and most of Mercury hated them for it We performed for a fickle crowd and lost ourselves in th charadeFull of vivid characters and scenes that are familiar to me Afterall I am also a product of Pennsylvania's rural Rust Belt Cinderland is a lyrical response to an issue that could have been the euivlaent of a Lifetime made for tv movie But it's not Instead Amy Jo Burns reminds us that being silent is not always as easy as it seems and that there are always conseuences to our actions


  8. Leah Leah says:

    I grew up in Mercury too although I graduated high school about a decade after Amy Jo Right from the opening on Whore Hill at the public pool I knew this book was going to look eerily familiar to my childhood by the way she's right The spots closest to the steel fence were a hot commodity I even went to the same camp at Lake Erie for years drove 30 minutes to the same town with the closest movie theater Allow me to tell you that she got our town our high school our lifestyle dead on Of course I recognize that a memoir is largely subjective after all it's based off of your memory and your perspective alone But she's right when she says on every bleacher there was one little girl who would grow up and fall in line just as I had She was one girl of many many girls It's a pattern in Mercury Your parents went to Mercury high school their parents went there at least one of your in laws probably did and one day your little ones may just go to Mercury too I first found out she wrote a memoir featuring our little town from my mother It was passed around their small Mercury book club because who can resist a story that you geographically relate to Trust me some people in Mercury aren't going to take well to this book for the light she paints it in Sobering light But what amazed me was that Amy Jo's writing crossed than a decade to reach me It was a different time different people but same shtick Some people want to leave others stay behind I know that's not why she wrote it but still it's very special to read the way you felt in someone else's handwriting Anyway I'm truly disgusted that the people of Mercury doubted this group of young victims from the start I didn't know Mr Lotte nor was I alive during the trial I'm saddened by the fact that the knee jerk reaction of many in Mercury was to reject what they were saying My favorite line Though I'd lived in Mercury all my life I still found moments where I clasped the tragic beauty of this place around my neck like an heirloom necklaceKiller imagery Amy Jo Strikingly true


  9. Margo Littell Margo Littell says:

    Cinderland is a memoir of a small town girl’s coming of age amid a local scandal whose effects reach far beyond the months of legal drama In the 1980s a handful of girls in Mercury Pennsylvania accused a popular piano teacher of sexual abuse In itself this is horrifying; worse is the way the town curled in on itself protecting the abuser and doubting the truth of the girls’ stories The girls who kept uiet and there were many were left not only with guilt over not openly supporting the accusations but also with fear of encountering the town’s disapproval and distrust if they did choose to come forward The fear was well founded one of the accusers chose self exile in the wake of the ugly response and the town rarely heard from her family again This memoir is as much the story of a town at a pivotal moment as it is a personal story of acceptance reflection and escape and the line between young woman and town is almost impossible to pinpoint You are where you came from this memoir suggests; but it suggests just as strongly that true self knowledge comes from transcending that home of origin and looking back with both clarity and grace


  10. Sandy Sandy says:

    I sought this book out after reading Burns' essay Good Girls in the anthology Not That Bad Dispatches from Rape Culture The essay described how 7 girls in a small Pennsylvania town came forward to report that their piano teacher had molested them during their lessons Burns was also molested by this teacher but chose to deny it when uestioned during the ensuing police investigation She kept uiet about the sexual abuse she endured after seeing how the girls who came forward had been treated they were ridiculed ostracized and treated as members of a conspiracy by those who didn't want to believe the allegations against the esteemed piano teacher At a young age Burns learned the sad lesson that a man's word and a man's future matter than the words and futures of a group of girls Although I preferred the sharper focused version of the story found in the essay I enjoyed the book Cinderland as well It brought back many memories of my own teenage years and how risky it felt to share your true thoughts with anyoneThis book is for anyone who comes from a conservative closed minded community which makes it difficult to speak your truth This book is for all of those who are waiting to grow up so that they can escape where they came from so that someday they might be able to live in alignment with their own truthsneeds


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Cinderland: A Memoir ❮Ebook❯ ➨ Cinderland: A Memoir Author Amy Jo Burns – Larringtonlifecoaching.co.uk A haunting literary debut about the cost of keeping uietAmy Jo Burns grew up in Mercury Pennsylvania an industrial town humbled by the steel collapse of the 1980s Instead of the construction booms and A haunting literary debut about the cost of keeping uietAmy Jo Burns grew up in Mercury Pennsylvania an industrial town humbled by the steel collapse of the s Instead of the construction booms and Cinderland: A PDF/EPUB ² twelve hour shifts her parents’ generation had known the Mercury Amy Jo knew was marred by empty houses old strip mines and vacant lots It wasn’t uite a ghost town—only because many people had no choice but to stayThe year Burns turned ten this sleepy town suddenly woke up Howard Lotte its beloved piano teacher was accused of sexually assaulting his female students Among the countless girls uestioned only seven came forward For telling the truth the town ostracized these girls and accused them of trying to smear a good man’s reputation As for the remaining girls—well they were smarter They lied Burns was one of themBut such a lie has its own conseuences Against a backdrop of fire and steel shame and redemption Burns tells of the boys she ran from and toward the friends she abandoned and the endless performances she gave to please a town that never trusted girls in the first placeThis is the story of growing up in a town that both worshipped and sacrificed its youth—a town that believed being a good girl meant being a uiet one—and the long road Burns took toward forgiving her ten year old self Cinderland is an elegy to that young girl’s innocence as well as a praise song to the curative powers of breaking a long silence.

  • Hardcover
  • 216 pages
  • Cinderland: A Memoir
  • Amy Jo Burns
  • 09 March 2015
  • 9780807037034

About the Author: Amy Jo Burns

Amy Jo Burns is the author of the memoir Cinderland and Shiner a novel Her writing has appeared in The Paris Review Daily Tin House and Ploughshares Online Gay Magazine Electric Literature Literary Hub Cinderland: A PDF/EPUB ² and the anthology Not That Bad.